well, i did it.

i wrote the email i’ve been putting off for ages.

the trick to getting shit done isn’t to be a machine, or to never stumble. it’s to get back up. to prepare for your own return and make it as easy as possible.

and trust yourself.

the trust is really a crucial ingredient…

try to beat yourself into submission, or bribe yourself into action, and not only will it make your procrastination *worse*…

you also communicate, through your actions, that you believe you can’t be trusted.

working with someone you can’t trust is horrible. it’s worse when it’s an inside job!

if you don’t trust yourself, you won’t give yourself the things you need to succeed.

so even if you do manage to trick yourself into doing the work, you won’t be able to do your best.

a lack of self-trust burns energy: you have to split your psyche into two: the driver, and the horse.

the driver monitors, goads, and whips. the horse tries to evade (and feels guilty).

that’s a lot of energy wasted that could be poured into living and doing instead

trusting myself means that when i avoid some task, i ask myself… why?

maybe i don’t feel well enough to tackle it bc it’s complex.

maybe i didn’t prepare enough.

maybe i have worries i have to resolve.

maybe i need something i don’t have yet.

maybe i need advice.

solving procrastination requires curiosity. you can’t be curious about something you don’t trust.

even if you’re not too busy monitoring and manipulating to think to ask, you won’t trust the answers.

sometimes the answer is “i just can’t do it right now”

and that’s ok bc if you trust yourself, you trust you will try again

without guilt or recriminations or avoidance, bc sometimes the simple truth is “i can’t today” and you tell it to someone who believes you.